Examine Yourself

As Rosh HaShannah approaches, when we begin to weigh our lives in the balance, during the month of Elul, determining for ourselves by way of “examining our conscience,” whether we have been living according to H’Shem’s standard, we will benefit from the endeavor when we do not cheat ourselves. For example, it may be too easy to weigh our good deeds against our faults, tipping the scale to the positive by ignoring some of the negative aspects of ourselves. Yet, on the other hand, if we focus too much upon the negative in regard to ourselves, we may risk bringing our emotional levels down too low. Rather, we should seek an honest account and balance the scale, with the help of H’Shem.

Ideally, we should focus on acknowledging our sins without hiding any iniquity from ourselves. “I acknowledged my sin unto Thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid; I said: ‘I will make confession concerning my transgressions unto the L-RD, – and Thou, Thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin” (Psalm 32:5, JPS). For, H’Shem will search our souls, as is written, “The spirit of man is the lamp of the L-RD, searching all the inward parts” (Proverbs 20:27, JPS).

We need to do a thorough cleansing before the Day of Judgment, when we pass before H’Shem, like sheep being counted by a shepherd, so that we will only be judged favorably by H’Shem, because we have judged ourselves first in a thorough manner. Our value-response to the moral code that H’Shem has given us, within the framework of the Commandments is integral in this endeavor. Unless we respond in a positive way to the moral law, these laws remain detached from our daily conduct. H’Shem requires a commitment on our part to respond to His call.

May we take an honest look at ourselves, not tipping the scale in either direction, for if we ignore our positive qualities, we may end up depressing ourselves, as mentioned elsewhere. Even so, this is more than an assessment of “strengths and weaknesses.” Rather, this should be a consolation to the soul, to be cleansed of guilt and sin, before standing in the presence of the King. For, if we confess our sins, H’Shem will faithful to us, and forgive our aveiros (sins). May our prayers ascend to G-d at the sound of the shofar, carried upon the merit of the Redeemer (see uva l’tziyon, Isaiah 59:20):

“And a redeemer will come to Zion, and unto them that turn from transgression in Jacob, saith the LRD.” – Isaiah 59:20, JPS 1917 Tanach

Examine Yourself

As Rosh HaShannah approaches, when we begin to weigh our lives in the balance, during the month of Elul, determining for ourselves by way of “examining our conscience,” whether we have been living according to H’Shem’s standard, we will benefit from the endeavor when we do not cheat ourselves. For example, it may be too easy to weigh our good deeds against our faults, tipping the scale to the positive by ignoring some of the negative aspects of ourselves. Yet, on the other hand, if we focus too much upon the negative in regard to ourselves, we may risk bringing our emotional levels down too low. Rather, we should seek an honest account and balance the scale, with the help of H’Shem.

Ideally, we should focus on acknowledging our sins without hiding any iniquity from ourselves. “I acknowledged my sin unto Thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid; I said: ‘I will make confession concerning my transgressions unto the L-RD, – and Thou, Thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin” (Psalm 32:5, JPS). For, H’Shem will search our souls, as is written, “The spirit of man is the lamp of the L-RD, searching all the inward parts” (Proverbs 20:27, JPS).

We need to do a thorough cleansing before the Day of Judgment, when we pass before H’Shem, like sheep being counted by a shepherd, so that we will only be judged favorably by H’Shem, because we have judged ourselves first in a thorough manner. Our value-response to the moral code that H’Shem has given us, within the framework of the Commandments is integral in this endeavor. Unless we respond in a positive way to the moral law, these laws remain detached from our daily conduct. H’Shem requires a commitment on our part to respond to His call.

May we take an honest look at ourselves, not tipping the scale in either direction, for if we ignore our positive qualities, we may end up depressing ourselves, as mentioned elsewhere. Even so, this is more than an assessment of “strengths and weaknesses.” Rather, this should be a consolation to the soul, to be cleansed of guilt and sin, before standing in the presence of the King. For, if we confess our sins, H’Shem will faithful to us, and forgive our aveiros (sins). May our prayers ascend to G-d at the sound of the shofar, carried upon the merit of the Redeemer (see uva l’tziyon, Isaiah 59:20):

“And a redeemer will come to Zion, and unto them that turn from transgression in Jacob, saith the LRD.” – Isaiah 59:20, JPS 1917 Tanach

Purim Shpiel 5782

I imagine that I will not be the only one attempting a “balancing act” this Purim: balancing joy & sorrow, past & present, and religion & life. Perhaps, there is no need for me to explain, and you, dear reader, are already beginning to get an inkling of what I am about to say. Purim is quickly approaching; yet, my thoughts are preoccupied with a modern-day Purim story, wherein the archvillain is intent on destruction, despite the opposition.

Abraham Heschel advocated for a Judaism that is not wrapped up in its past glory, in spite of the prevailing circumstances of life. How can I celebrate Purim in a joyous manner, knowing that a real-life situation demands my attention, prayer, and support? To go along with Purim-as-usual would create a great disconnect between what is meant to be a living faith in touch with the challenges of life and the actual challenges that present themselves, despite the timing.

The war in Ukraine will not be put on hold for the celebration of Purim. This is the stark reality that many of the Jewish refugees who have managed to cross the border know. And the unfortunate ones, who for whatever reasons are still in Ukraine, sheltering in basements, or fighting to defend their country also know this all too well. The rejoicing in Shushan and the lands of Ahasuerus did not occur until after victory was procured for the Jewish people, who were previously threatened by the evil designs of Haman.

Today, rejoicing over this past victory will in all likelihood be diminished in light of the present reality. Whatever lessons we are able to glean from Purim, I would encourage that these be applied to our response to the events of today. Otherwise, as Heschel wrote, we risk ignoring “the crisis of today,” “because of the splendor of the past” (Heschel, G-d in Search of Man, ch.1).

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