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Vanquished Dreams

weekly Torah reading : parasha Va’etchanan 5784

Moses, who lost out on permission to enter the land, pleaded one last time with H’Shem. He did not expect to change the L-RD’s mind, based upon any merit that he might claim for himself; for, it was precisely his demerit, having struck the rock, instead of speaking to the rock, that compelled G-d to decree that neither Moses, nor Aaron would enter the Land.

Yet, Moshe tried and tried again, for the sake of making an appeal to the L-RD, Who on several occasions in the past, relented from strict judgment against Israel.

To no avail, Moshe’s pleas only brought the retort that the L-RD had heard enough, he would not change his mind. Why, we may ask, when Moses acted on behalf of the people, the L-RD forgave them, and lessened the judgment; yet, in asking for himself, he is refused?

Although I am not prone to speculation, one answer could be because of the high level of expectations the L-RD had of him, as well as Aaron, because of their leadership positions. For, more is expected of those who have greater responsibilities to others.

Yet, consider, that all was not lost upon Moses, for his error; rather, as Rashi comments, his consolation prize, so to speak, was permission to enter Olam Haba (the World to Come). And, this, in all estimation, is really the greater reward – one that we should also look forward to in great expectation. For, this world is like a corridor, where we prove ourselves to the L-RD, so that we may enter the banquet hall, symbolic of the World to Come (Pirkei Avos 4:21).

Like Moshe, regardless of whatever unfulfilled dreams we may have in our own lives, G-d will grant an even greater reward to us, if we remain faithful to Him.

Daily Potential

parasha Devarim 5784

“The L-RD your God has blessed you in all your undertakings. He has watched over your wanderings through this great wilderness.”

– Deuteronomy 2:7, JPS 1985 Tanach

While journeying from place to place in the wilderness, the L-RD provided the Children of Israel with sustenance, in the form of water from the well, manna from the sky, and quails, on that one occasion, that they ate for a month. Over a period of forty years, the fledgling nation of Israel was guarded, guided, and provided for by the L-RD.

This time was also used to test them, especially when provisions seemed to run scarce, or they had growing temptations about returning to Egypt, where there was not only more variety of food, also, security in knowing where their food would come from every day to put on their table. Their provisions in Egypt, even as slaves, seemed surer, than the day-to-day trust that they needed to place in the L-RD, who only provided for them on a daily basis.

Perhaps, the adage, “one day at a time,” is significant, here, with respect to the way they lived their lives for forty years. And, the same adage can be applied to our lives today, with respect towards a trusting in the simplicity of life, when we focus on our needs, instead of our wants. For, only inasmuch that we can depend on the provision of the day, for both our material and spiritual nourishment, can we live in appreciation of each day, as a unique, unrepeatable basic unit of time, that brings certain opportunities for our growth as individuals.

Each day has its potential that is offered in its own time. This is akin to the offerings of the moadim (appointed times), “each on its own day” (Leviticus 23:37). So, that in regard to the days of our lives, we may achieve what G-d’s expectations are for us, adding day upon day, in order to accumulate understanding, experience, and wisdom. And, go from strength to strength, as well as from day to day, until the time of Moshiach (Messiah).

parasha Balak 5784

weekly Torah reading: parasha Balak 5784 – Character & Integrity

“G-d is not man to be capricious, or mortal to change His mind. Would He speak and not act, promise and not fulfill?” – Numbers 23:21, JPS

“The Word of the living God is not as the words of men for the Lord, the Ruler of all worlds, is the unchangeable (but) man speaketh and denieth. Neither are His works like the works of the children of flesh, who consult, and then repent them of what they had decreed.” – Targum Jonathan on Numbers 23:19, sefaria.org

The importance of remaining true to our word, character, and belief system i integral to the cultural climate today, whereas voices are being silenced and self-censored. We must remain true to ourselves and our faith…

parasha Shelach 5784

parasha Shelach 5784 – A Different Spirit

The weekly reading from the Torah is parasha Shelach, having to do with the sin of the spies, excepting – Joshua and Caleb – that prevented B’nei Yisrael from initially entering the Land, only one year after the Exodus. It is written that Caleb had a different spirit…

The story of Caleb is a message of faith and resilience embodied by Caleb. Caleb went to the Cave of Machpaleh in Hebron, in order to pray in the merit of the Patriarchs and Matriarchs. For this spiritual effort, he was protected against the calumny of the other ten spies.

Caleb’s faith and connection to the divine were instrumental in preserving his integrity and vision during challenging times. His integrity was preserved by a transcendent G-d. Caleb’s story further serves as a reminder of the transformative potential of turning to HaShem during difficult moments.

These moments will sustain us, as we recall our yeshuos from Above, when we might have succumbed to the rampant negativity around us. In like manner that both Joshua and Caleb were preserved, our integrity may be left intact when we seek the protection that only G-d can offer us. We cannot always act on our own; although, G-d appreciates the effort.

Yet, He also favors us when we turn to Him, in acknowledge of our dependency on His strength, to make the circumstances in our lives, regardless of how challenging, conform to His will – all for the best, because we have placed our upmost trust in Him.

Behar – Trust in HaShem

reflections on parasha Behar 5784

Within the text, concerning the Shemitah year, there is a reassurance given to the one who doubts in his mind, whether or not G-d’s provision will suffice when the land lies fallow. G-d anticipates the question. “And if ye shall say: ‘What shall we eat in the seventh year? Behold, we may not sow, nor gather in our increase’; then I will command My blessing upon you in the sixth year, and it shall bring forth produce for the three years” (Leviticus 25:2-21, JPS 1917 Tanach).

Apparently, there is a conflict between faith and reason, in the mind of the doubter, regarding the provision to be made for the three years. In this sense, reason diminishes the bitachon (trust) in HaShem to provide; so, He gives His blessing to assure the one who doubts, that despite his inability to understand how one year’s worth of crops would last for three years, it will be provided, according to HaShem’s Providence.

Yet, even if there is a conviction in the eyes of the beholder that the provision will be made, one might wonder how that fulfillment will be brought about. Too often we uphold the unspoken tenet that faith and reason are opposed to each other. Similarly, the polarity between faith and questioning should be understood as a dialogue, not as opposite positions in regard to belief.

Since HaShem’s ways are higher than our ways, it is only natural to wonder how He will bring about his promises, despite what we may see with eyes, hear with our ears, and question with our intellect. Faith bridges the gap between our lack of understanding and His fulfillment of His promises.

If we have doubt, it may not be so much because of a lack of belief in G-d, rather, it could be a result of our doubt in His efficacy. That is an issue having to do with bitachon (trust). We may question, while still having faith, in tandem with our doubts.

Dual Realities

weekly Torah reading: parasha Mishpatim 5784

“And these are the judgments that you shall set before them.”

– Exodus 21:1

“v’eilah mishpatim – and these are the judgments”

The parasha begins, “and these are the judgments.” In Hebrew, the letter vov, meaning “and,” bears significance here. For the implication can be drawn, that there is a connection being emphasized, between this parasha and the previous one. Immediately following the revelation at Sinai, whereof HaShem “descended,” amidst the thunder and lightning, in an impressive display of His greatness, the Torah begins to list the mishpatim, a set of commandments that seem pale, mundane, and this-worldly in comparison to the other-worldy nature of the Revelation at Sinai.

A simple question may be asked, in and of itself, what does this juxtaposition of opposites portray in its contrast of a heightened experience at Sinai, with the relatively dry giving forth of commandments having to do with everyday life?

All areas of life are intertwined, as characterized within the framework of Torah. G-d’s divine plan for mankind has as much to do with His appearance on Sinai, amidst the thunder and lightning, as the everyday guidelines given to us in order to regulate our conduct here on earth. Although many would conceive of religion, especially the Eastern religions and various types of spiritual traditions as somehow separate from the mundane affairs of life, this cannot be the case in regard to Judaism.

Additionally, in regard to what is considered as the spiritual realm, wherein, through prayer or hisbodedus (meditation), we may reach great heights of sublime experience that seem “out of the ordinary,” while connecting to HaShem, these experiences must not take precedent over our attempts to live a righteous life, in all manner of details, according to the mitzvot.

Yet, perhaps, it is all too common to focus on the spiritual component, to the exclusion of leading a life based upon G-d’s commandments. Thus, a compartmentalization of spiritual experiences may occur, while conducting oneself in a manner akin to secular standards .

Instead, the sublime ways that we connect to G-d should sharpen our acuity to bring down this awareness into every aspect of our lives, encompassing all areas that might otherwise be overlooked, disregarded, or not held up to the light of reason, within the perspective given to us by all of kitvei kodesh (holy scripture). Leave no stone unturned, in examining ourselves, and bringing our thoughts, speech, and action under the reign of G-d’s sovereignty over our lives.

parasha Vayechi 5784

“Although you intended me harm, G-d intended it for good.”

– Genesis 50:20, JPSN

Joseph recognized the divine nature of the events that led to his ascendency to becoming the viceroy of Egypt. It was solely G-d’s guidance of events that brought something good out of what appeared to be evil. His brother’s jealousy toward him, served as a catalyst to set events in motion that brought Joseph to Egypt. So, he could not judge them, nor feel resentment toward them, because there was a higher plan working through the actions that they took against him twenty-two years prior to their moving to Egypt to receive G-d’s providence in the land of Goshen.

The famine compelled them, at the behest of their father Jacob to seek rations in Egypt. Yet, H’Shem provided for them, in a manner beyond their expectations, for the entire famine. This shows that G-d always has in mind what is best for us, despite our flaws. He will bring about a way for us to realize our faults, and turn toward Him, in the spirit of teshuvah (repentance). And, He will forgive us for our wrong-doings.

In like manner that Joseph forgave his brothers, we can be assured of HaShem’s forgiveness, when we humble ourselves before Him, in acknowledgment of our sins. Oseph, who suffered at the hands of his brothers forgave them. And the L-RD, Who is grieved by our unruly natures and obstinacy will forgive us as well, when we make a sincere repentance.

We must change our lives, day by day, growing closer to G-d, through our awareness of our shortcomings, and the mending of our souls. This is tikkun hanefesh – the repair of the soul. Our path leads us toward the righteousness, that can only be acquired in tandem with G-d’s help. If we cooperate with His will for us, He will draw us ever closer to Him.

Divine Orchestration

weekly Torah reading: parasha Vayigash 5784 – Divine Orchestration

“And he fell upon his brethren, and wept upon them; and after his brethren talked with him.” – Genesis 45:15

One can only imagine the conversations that ensued, after Joseph had revealed himself to his brothers. Twenty-to years had passed, since Joseph had been thrown into a pit, and sold to traders passing by Shechem, where his brothers conspired against him. Yet, he explained, after revealing his true identity, “be not grieved, nor angry with yourselves, that you sold me here; for G-d did send me before you to preserve life” (Genesis 45:5). Therefore, upon reconciling himself to his brothers, Joseph acknowledged the divine guidance of the L-RD, Who arranged Joseph’s descent into Egypt, and subsequent ascent to the viceroy of Egypt for a higher purpose.

All things work for the good, according to the divine guidance of G-d’s master blueprint. It is only that for the most part, the suffering that may occur along the way obscures our understanding of the plan. For Joseph and his brothers, only after a little more than two decades, were the events that were set in motion so many years ago, reach fruition as the fulfillment of Joseph’s dreams, according to G-d’s wisdom. Therefore, we would do best to reserve our own critique of the events in our lives, when they do not seem to be going according to our plan; and hope that if we subjugate our will to His will, it will all work out for the best.

Whatever conversation that may have ensued, after Joseph revealed himself to his brothers, was not the typical “catching up,” so to speak, of brethren who have not seen each other for years. I would like to imagine that the conversation was focused on what the L-RD did through his own hasgacha peratis (divine guidance), to bring about the desired end, for the sake of Joseph’s entire family, that they would be preserved through the worst years of the famine and provided for in the land of Goshen. Joseph further explains to his brothers, “it was not you who sent me here, but G-d” (Genesis 45:8). Thus, Joseph acknowledges the divine footprint of G-d, who was the One Who orchestrated these events. Whatever role his brothers played in that divine orchestra, were negligible, when compared to the role of the Divine Composer.

A Life Well-Lived

parasha Chayei Sarah 5784

“And the life of Sarah was one hundred years and twenty years and seven years; [these were] the years of the life of Sarah.”

– Genesis 23:1, The Complete Jewish Tanach

Commentary notes that there is a specific reason that the word “years” appears after each component number of the total number of years of her life. Inasmuch as each time frame of her life is to be understood in a certain manner, the following rendering is given: her childhood, young adulthood, and adulthood were all equally good (based on Rashi). Imagine an equanimity of identity, intention, and purpose spanning the entirety of a life – this was the life of Sarah.

This may be contrasted with the lives of many people in modernity. Common language, currently describes different formative years in a negative way, for example, the terrible twos, the rebellious adolescence, and the burdensome task of “finding oneself” given to the young adult.

And, with the proliferation of Wokism, today’s youth face even more challenges in regard to identity formation: falling into different identity groups, assigned by a movement based on identity Marxism. Individuality is cast aside in favor of identification with an external identity-group that is automatically defined by race, sex, and the ever-changing gender categories.

Yet, despite this smorgasbord of identity touted by the Woke Agenda, there is still something to say for the normative values and ways of life defined by the Bible. The wisdom of scripture, inspired by G-d may provide us with a framework of instruction for our lives. Especially, as the values of Western society continue to crumble before our very eyes.

Unless an individual embarks upon a steady path, replete with a moral component, then how can one navigate the vicissitudes of life? Too often, the formula of permitting the youth to experience life for themselves, without providing any clear guideposts, is the one taken by parents who have been influenced by the permissiveness of societal norms. Yet, there is still something to say for those throughout the world who are brought up within a more traditional framework. This would include those within cultures that embrace traditional morality, as well as those that uphold religious values.

The monotheism embraced by both Abraham and Sarah served as a rallying cry for their newfound beliefs, whereof each were committed to a high degree of sanctity in their lives, despite the idolatry and diminished moral sphere of the surrounding peoples of that time. Eventually, the three Abrahamic faiths influenced the world in a manner, whereby many people were called to a higher standard.

Comparatively speaking, as the standard of the world seems to decline in more recent times, it is even more important to plan a trajectory for our own lives, those of our children, and the future of society, even in the midst of societal breakdowns. We need a return to an unadulterated life of stability, purposeful intent, and commitment; instead of the rampant nihilism, experimenting, and seeking of entertainment, so common in modern society. May the pure, devoted, and moral life of Sarah serve as an example for us to seek meaning and the utmost good for our lives.

“Where there is no vision, the people cast off restraint; but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.” – Proverbs 29:18, JPS 1917 Tanach

parasha Bereishis 5784

“He placed at the east end of the garden of Eden the cherubim, and the flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way to the tree of life.” – Genesis 3:24, JPS 1917 Tanach

Even though Adam and Chava lived in Gan Eden, a paradise on earth, when they partook of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil, contrary to G-d’s commandment not to do so, sin entered the world. This brought about inevitable death, as a consequence of severing their connection to G-d. “Your iniquities have separated between you and your G-d” (Isaiah 59:2, JPS).

Angels with flaming swords were stationed to guard the Tree of Life. The intent was to prevent Adam and Chava from living forever with their newfound knowledge of good and evil. This is a profound passage, that must be reflected upon. The disobedience of Adam and Chava led to their expulsion from the garden of Eden.

Moreover, since they were no longer in accord with G-d’s will, their lives and those of their progeny would have been in a constant state of flux forever. The discord that now existed from an admixture of good and evil in the world, would have continued in perpetuity. Even so, today, the ramifications of disobedience persist. We are subject to the jetsam and flotsam of good and evil, both within the world and within ourselves. How can we recognize this amalgamation? Only by sorting out its component parts within us through discernment using G-d’s wisdom.

“The line separating good and evil passes not through states, nor between classes, nor between political parties either – but right through every human heart – and through all human hearts” (Alexandr Solzhenitsyn, Gulag Archipelago). Thusly said, the Russian dissident touched upon a universal truth, that sheds light on the true human condition today.

The current social climate obscures this truth in favor of a blame game, casting aspersion on so-called oppressor groups, institutions, and historical narratives that don’t give credence to the narrative norm. The solution is to look within ourselves, in order to delineate bad from good, and change our own character, based upon the realizations that we our granted through an examination of conscience. “It is impossible to expel evil from the world in its entirety, but it is possible to constrict it within each person” (ibid.). May G-d guide us in this endeavor.