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parasha Balak 5784

weekly Torah reading: parasha Balak 5784 – Character & Integrity

“G-d is not man to be capricious, or mortal to change His mind. Would He speak and not act, promise and not fulfill?” – Numbers 23:21, JPS

“The Word of the living God is not as the words of men for the Lord, the Ruler of all worlds, is the unchangeable (but) man speaketh and denieth. Neither are His works like the works of the children of flesh, who consult, and then repent them of what they had decreed.” – Targum Jonathan on Numbers 23:19, sefaria.org

The importance of remaining true to our word, character, and belief system i integral to the cultural climate today, whereas voices are being silenced and self-censored. We must remain true to ourselves and our faith…

Behar – Trust in HaShem

reflections on parasha Behar 5784

Within the text, concerning the Shemitah year, there is a reassurance given to the one who doubts in his mind, whether or not G-d’s provision will suffice when the land lies fallow. G-d anticipates the question. “And if ye shall say: ‘What shall we eat in the seventh year? Behold, we may not sow, nor gather in our increase’; then I will command My blessing upon you in the sixth year, and it shall bring forth produce for the three years” (Leviticus 25:2-21, JPS 1917 Tanach).

Apparently, there is a conflict between faith and reason, in the mind of the doubter, regarding the provision to be made for the three years. In this sense, reason diminishes the bitachon (trust) in HaShem to provide; so, He gives His blessing to assure the one who doubts, that despite his inability to understand how one year’s worth of crops would last for three years, it will be provided, according to HaShem’s Providence.

Yet, even if there is a conviction in the eyes of the beholder that the provision will be made, one might wonder how that fulfillment will be brought about. Too often we uphold the unspoken tenet that faith and reason are opposed to each other. Similarly, the polarity between faith and questioning should be understood as a dialogue, not as opposite positions in regard to belief.

Since HaShem’s ways are higher than our ways, it is only natural to wonder how He will bring about his promises, despite what we may see with eyes, hear with our ears, and question with our intellect. Faith bridges the gap between our lack of understanding and His fulfillment of His promises.

If we have doubt, it may not be so much because of a lack of belief in G-d, rather, it could be a result of our doubt in His efficacy. That is an issue having to do with bitachon (trust). We may question, while still having faith, in tandem with our doubts.

parasha Vayikra 5784

The completion of the Mishkan was followed by the manifestation of HaShem’s presence, in the form of a cloud that filled the Tabernacle, and prevented Moshe from entering. Then HaShem calls (vayikra) to Moshe from the Ohel Moed (Tent of Meeting); He proceeds with instructing Moshe to speak to B’nei Yisrael, concerning the bringing of a korban (offering). The Hebrew word, “korban” is derived from the shoresh (root word), קרב meaning to draw near. This implies that the individual draws near to HaShem through the bringing of an offering.

The passage continues by describing five general types of offerings. The olah represents spiritual elevation, because the entire offering is burnt on the mizbeach (altar), sending the smoke to shomayim (heaven). The word olah is connected to the word aliyah, meaning to ascend. Next, the meal offerings are mentioned: “And when any one bringeth a meal-offering unto HaShem” (Leviticus 2:1, JPS). Literally, the verse reads, “when a soul brings a meal offering.” This is because a poor person who brings a meal offering, it is as if he offers up his own soul” (Rashi).

Next, the Torah discusses shloshamim (peace offerings), meant to reconcile the person to G-d and man. After this, the chatas (sin offering), and the asham (guilt offering) are mentioned. Both of these were brought specifically to atone for sin. Yet. the olah, burnt offering could also be made on a voluntary basis to atone for impure thoughts. All of these offerings give us an indication of what we need to be concerned about in our relationship to HaShem.

parasha Vayakhel 5784

“Let the graciousness of the L-rd our G-d be upon us; establish Thou also upon us the work of our hands; yea, the work of our hands establish Thou it.” – Psalm 90:17, JPS 1917 Tanach

Upon completing the monumental construction all of the various components of the Mishkan (portable tabernacle in the desert), the artisans and craftsmen brought everything to Moses, who responded with the appropriate enthusiasm of the leader of B’nei Yisrael (the Children of Israel):

“And when Moses saw that they had performed all the tasks—as the LORD had commanded, so they had done—Moses blessed them.” The Israelites had done all that was commanded of them, so of course, they deserved a blessing. Yet, what does a blessing in and of itself constitute, especially for such an enormous amount of work that was done willingly, as a free gift offering, by they whom committed themselves to the task?

In the modern world, renumeration for services rendered is the norm amongst those who work for a living; and, often we value our selves, based upon our abilities and profession, as well as the opportunity to provide for ourselves. Yet, anyone, including myself, who has worked as a volunteer for some cause knows the reward for doing so; to feel a part of greater whole, for the sole sake of contributing to a good cause is an invaluable estimation of one’s time and effort in the endeavor.

Even so, the greater picture concerns our contribution to the expectations of G-d for the sake of others, as well as ourselves. There is no remuneration that can be measured in terms that would assess the benefits that the soul receives for having been part of G-d’s master plan; for He is the great architect of our lives, as well as the end goal of all human endeavors that are in alignment with His divine blueprint for the world.

The Mishkan was constructed for the sake of providing a place where G-d’s presence would rest amongst His people. The project required a coordinated effort from the people to build something of lasting value for the sake of maintaining a connection with G-d. We would also do well to consider, that whatever we do will only be established through the blessings of G-d in our lives, whether we realize the nature of those blessings or not. The more we contribute to worthy endeavors that will be approved in His eyes, the greater will be our security.

Dual Realities

weekly Torah reading: parasha Mishpatim 5784

“And these are the judgments that you shall set before them.”

– Exodus 21:1

“v’eilah mishpatim – and these are the judgments”

The parasha begins, “and these are the judgments.” In Hebrew, the letter vov, meaning “and,” bears significance here. For the implication can be drawn, that there is a connection being emphasized, between this parasha and the previous one. Immediately following the revelation at Sinai, whereof HaShem “descended,” amidst the thunder and lightning, in an impressive display of His greatness, the Torah begins to list the mishpatim, a set of commandments that seem pale, mundane, and this-worldly in comparison to the other-worldy nature of the Revelation at Sinai.

A simple question may be asked, in and of itself, what does this juxtaposition of opposites portray in its contrast of a heightened experience at Sinai, with the relatively dry giving forth of commandments having to do with everyday life?

All areas of life are intertwined, as characterized within the framework of Torah. G-d’s divine plan for mankind has as much to do with His appearance on Sinai, amidst the thunder and lightning, as the everyday guidelines given to us in order to regulate our conduct here on earth. Although many would conceive of religion, especially the Eastern religions and various types of spiritual traditions as somehow separate from the mundane affairs of life, this cannot be the case in regard to Judaism.

Additionally, in regard to what is considered as the spiritual realm, wherein, through prayer or hisbodedus (meditation), we may reach great heights of sublime experience that seem “out of the ordinary,” while connecting to HaShem, these experiences must not take precedent over our attempts to live a righteous life, in all manner of details, according to the mitzvot.

Yet, perhaps, it is all too common to focus on the spiritual component, to the exclusion of leading a life based upon G-d’s commandments. Thus, a compartmentalization of spiritual experiences may occur, while conducting oneself in a manner akin to secular standards .

Instead, the sublime ways that we connect to G-d should sharpen our acuity to bring down this awareness into every aspect of our lives, encompassing all areas that might otherwise be overlooked, disregarded, or not held up to the light of reason, within the perspective given to us by all of kitvei kodesh (holy scripture). Leave no stone unturned, in examining ourselves, and bringing our thoughts, speech, and action under the reign of G-d’s sovereignty over our lives.

Divine Orchestration

weekly Torah reading: parasha Vayigash 5784 – Divine Orchestration

“And he fell upon his brethren, and wept upon them; and after his brethren talked with him.” – Genesis 45:15

One can only imagine the conversations that ensued, after Joseph had revealed himself to his brothers. Twenty-to years had passed, since Joseph had been thrown into a pit, and sold to traders passing by Shechem, where his brothers conspired against him. Yet, he explained, after revealing his true identity, “be not grieved, nor angry with yourselves, that you sold me here; for G-d did send me before you to preserve life” (Genesis 45:5). Therefore, upon reconciling himself to his brothers, Joseph acknowledged the divine guidance of the L-RD, Who arranged Joseph’s descent into Egypt, and subsequent ascent to the viceroy of Egypt for a higher purpose.

All things work for the good, according to the divine guidance of G-d’s master blueprint. It is only that for the most part, the suffering that may occur along the way obscures our understanding of the plan. For Joseph and his brothers, only after a little more than two decades, were the events that were set in motion so many years ago, reach fruition as the fulfillment of Joseph’s dreams, according to G-d’s wisdom. Therefore, we would do best to reserve our own critique of the events in our lives, when they do not seem to be going according to our plan; and hope that if we subjugate our will to His will, it will all work out for the best.

Whatever conversation that may have ensued, after Joseph revealed himself to his brothers, was not the typical “catching up,” so to speak, of brethren who have not seen each other for years. I would like to imagine that the conversation was focused on what the L-RD did through his own hasgacha peratis (divine guidance), to bring about the desired end, for the sake of Joseph’s entire family, that they would be preserved through the worst years of the famine and provided for in the land of Goshen. Joseph further explains to his brothers, “it was not you who sent me here, but G-d” (Genesis 45:8). Thus, Joseph acknowledges the divine footprint of G-d, who was the One Who orchestrated these events. Whatever role his brothers played in that divine orchestra, were negligible, when compared to the role of the Divine Composer.